Without You

I am so tired
I watched you leave
Now I am empty inside
Now I break, and I grieve
What is there now in my mind
That I can really believe?

Everything I thought I knew
Left with you through that door
And I cry so much each hour
I do not want to live anymore
You took away all of my power
And I have nothing left to live for

In my mind, you were my savior
You promised to save me from my hell
But all you did was walk away instead
When you saw that I really was unwell
And would you cry, if I was found dead?
Do you know … how low I fell?

You were my one chance
One opportunity to be cured
But you could not have loved me
No matter how much I was assured
Because you watched, but didn’t see
Now my depression grows long and bored

And I am wishing
You could come back, release me from my chains
Tell me in truth that I am what you desire
But if you did, it would merely be another of your games
And now I walk so close to the fire
Unable to bare these pains

And will you come save me?
Will you step in and hold me near?
Save me from my tormented agony
Chase away every last fear
Would you finally come and protect me?
Or would you just leave me dying here … ?

I am scared, so very scared for my sanity
Scared because I can not make it through
Scared because you left when I hit bottom
And I really did, and still do need you
But in your world, I am completely forgotten
And in the back of my mind, I guess I always knew.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005