I Hope That No One Can See Me

I’d give up a lifetime to touch you
To see if you can still feel me there
Because I’m sure you no longer can see me
Or maybe it’s just you don’t care

I hope that no one can see me
Because I’m afraid that I might fall apart
When I’ve lost all there is that’s worth losing
I’ll still have you in my poor heart

I don’t blame you for all of this pain
For what you unknowingly did
For thinking we could be together, the blame is all mine
For all of these emotions I hid

I hope that no one can see me
Because I might just break down all the way
When everything worth saying’s been said
Then what does that leave me to say?

The wounds are hiding there deeply
For all of these words left unsaid
I’d bandage me heart and stitch it right up
But it seems that I’ve run out of thread

I hope that no one can see me
Because I might fall apart at the seams
When all that’s worth hearing has been heard
Will I still hear your voice in my dreams?

When who you once cherished is now gone
And you know that you’re not being missed
When everything feels like you’re dreaming
Would you hurt just to know you exist?

I hope that no one can see me
Because I might just lose my poor mind
When everyone that’d never leave me have gone
Then who does that leave me behind?

The only moments that seem to be real
Are the ones spent in your sweet presence
But sooner than later the moment concludes
And the feeling of loss is intense

I hope that no one can see me
Because I’m afraid my emotions I might feel
When all that was once true is now lies
Then how do we know it was real?

**still not sure, this writer's block sucks**