F... It, I Give Up

I give up on trying,
No point in lying,
Words and efforts go unseen
So why cant i go beneath the green?

Hurting inside so bad,
Things that make me so mad
Trying to protect the ones that i love,
Seems its only done from up above

Hurt and breaking is my heart
My family torn apart
Hold my life out to me,
And i would return it, un thankfully

My brother, whom i love so
I wish, oh i wish he would not go
Turning to drugs and suicide
I'm getting afraid, i have to hide

My mother loves me and i do her,
But never once do we concur
She knows my life from start to now
But letting go, she doesn't know how

My father tries and try he might
But still my family always fight
he cannot control them, They are to outspoken,
And this is how my family is broken

Friends falling apart in my hands
Life ending with unmade plans
I cannot handle my life like i used to
but nothing will make me commit suicide, i stay for you

For Alec, Jess, Dad, Mum, Flearoy, Mike, And all the people who look out for me in these dire times. I love you all.