Suicidal Reflections

I'm so confused, so torn, so afraid i might fall.
I'm so heart broken, so shamed, so suicidal.
Where do i run when there's no where i can go?
Who do i tell when there's no one who wants to know?

My tears, they will slip from my eyes.
The truth, they will slip from the lies.
My hate, it will surface above the love.
And today: i will drown in my own blood.

It hurts so much I am now laughing from all the pain.
My reality is torn, it's not so bad being insane.

Here i am... threatening my reflection again.
Threatening myself with a bloody end.
The girl in this mirror, she wants so badly to die.
She cuts herself, and again she cries.
And now my own reflection is so unfamiliar
Who is this girl staring back at me from the mirror?

As i draw the knife closer and closer,
I say to her over and over...
i promise you now: YOU WILL DIE INSIDE.
AND THE TEARS YOU'VE CRIED, THEY WILL FINALLY DRY.
The pain will make you forget what you were crying about.
You'll scream and bleed from the inside out
Tonight is your dream come true.
...Because tonight I am coming for you.

Trying to escape myself in desperation.
This nightmare is my own little creation.
AND I KNOW THAT NO ONE ELSE KNOWS THE HIDDEN INTENTIONS
OF ALL THE HARM THAT COULD BE CAUSED BY MY REFLECTION.

I want to run away, but there's no where to go.
I want to tell, but they don't want to know.
With these late hours, me and the night fall.
I'm so torn, so shamed, so suicidal.
The blood races down my finger tips.
Onto the bathroom tiles it drips.
I try my best not to blink
As i watch the blood fall to the sink.
As it slowly pours from my veins
And slides down the sink drain.

The moments you hurt me, you will never forget.
When you find me bleeding, you will then regret.
I'll make you sorry you ever lied.
Because now I've finally committed suicide.