Insomnia and night

Hours upon hours tick by
night upon night
day upon passing day,
BUT
no sleep. no comfort for one so lost.
staring at the walls as if
they were alive.
wondering why it had to be you.
couldnt it be someone else?
someone with less issues than u?
why you? a person battered
by relentless volleys of pain
and inner anguish...
you want to sleep.. to forget whats happening but u cant.

It's forcing you to stay awake,
and no amount of sitting, writing,
whatever can change its mind.
it has taken control of your mind
you body, your soul.
it will never let you rest.
not even for a moment. days turn
to weeks, weeks into months, thus you get no sleep. you fall into a pit of depression.. the walls smooth and high.
there are no holds to climb out.. nothing. you are trapped forever in a sea of conscious blackness with no escape.
your nightmares of the past take form.. its not a dream. you cant control what happens.
you cant wake up and make it go away.