More Then You'll Know

I cant help it
What if runs through my brain
The thoughts the emotions
They are making me insane

I'll never get to hold her
Or play ball with him
She'll never go to prom
State championships he wont win

She wont have a sister
He wont have a friend
She wont call me mommy
His boo boo I cant mend

I hurt through my heart
I hurt in my soul
Why did I think it would be easy
So easy to let go

I wanted that baby
I wanted to call it my own
But instead I cancel
The seed I had sown

I cant undo the mistake
I cant fix the wrong
Cause in 5 short minutes
My baby is gone

I cry late at night
When lying beside my love
And think of the baby
That is watching from above

I want her to know
I didn't not care
It wasn't the time
My choice wasn't fair

I wasn't ready to be your mommy
I wasn't ready for you
I hope someday though
I will get to be with you

I hope you'll forgive me
Cause its more then you'll know
But inside my heart
You're my baby and I'll never let you go