My Suicide Note

I never wanted to hurt you
I never wanted to lie
I never wanted to look in the mirror
And I never wanted to hate myself

I’m tired of the words
‘You brought it on yourself’
I’m tired of the fake caring
I’m so tired of the act

I could not take the pain
That was caused through living
I tried but I was just too weak
Oh I tried so hard

I tried to stop the cutting
But I couldn’t handle the numbness
I did the wrong thing
I didn’t get the help needed

And now I’ll hurt you again
But this will be the last time
I’m gonna take these pills
I’m gonna take the job
And I’m gonna let my blood flow

But before I do this I want you to know
I really did love you, all of you
And I’m sorry that you’ll have to find out
Through my suicide note