Inevitable

Why can't you see it?
You must be blind
It's so obvious to me
So just look into my mind

Listen closely to what I have to say
To the countless of things you will hear
That you'll hate me forever,
That's my secret undying fear

I'm shaking and crying
Perhaps I'm not quite ready
To share all these things with you
My voice just won't stay steady

But why delay the inevitable?
You'll find out someday
I'd much rather it was from me
And what better day to tell you, than a Sunday?

The day of peace and quiet
The day made for resting
I'm so sorry I'll ruin yours
I'm even sorry for simply existing

So how do I tell you?
I don't want to see your reaction
The undeniable shock and horror
For what seems like a simple action

Should I just show you?
Not use any words at all?
Would that be better or worse?
To hide on the other side of my wall

How will you react,
Denial, anger, silence or tears?
Whichever one, I just want to hide
To shut my eyes and cover my ears

Please believe me when I say
I don't want to hurt you
I simply felt this was the only way
For me to somehow get through

Don't make me say I'll stop
'Cause that's a promise I'll break
And it's one I don't want to make
For my own and everyone else’s sake

So look at me closely now
And either believe in me,
Or just let me go
It's all up to what you can see

My eyes may be dead
My smile may be fake
My words may be empty
I’m so vulnerable, I'll break

All I need is your belief
The journey may be uphill
But please tell me these wounds can heal
…I have to believe that they will

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