Heart turns to stone

I pick up the knife
and begin to slice
watch the blood come out
I feel all nice

Deeper and deeper
day by day
I can't help it
There's no other way

I relieve my pain
and heartache
I make it all better
For my own sake

It makes me sane
no more fearing
Of what will happen
From my death nearing

But maybe I'll bring
it upon myself
you just can't say
I didn't try help

I went to doctors
many of sort
But all they say
is I build up a fort

The don't try to help me
so they leave me alone
and with that
my heart turns to stone

No more love for myself
I give up on caring
and I'm through with
Grinning and bareing

So Just go away
and stop all the bullspit
I don't care anymore
I'm through with it