For Me

It's not good for me to love you
It's not good for me to care
It's not good for me to bear,
this love placed on me here.
I feel as though i'm running,
with nothing to guide me home,
you do too many things i can't condone.
It's not good for me to dream of you and things that can't be.
It's not good for me to think of you so constantly.
It's not good that every road i take leads me back to you
It's not good for me to be so scared of everything i do.
It's not good for me to love you more and more each day.
you fill my thoughts to the brim,
I wish you would just go away,
take this hold on me and throw it all away.
It's not good for me to be here each and every day,
waiting on you to say it's all ok.
It's not good for me to understand your moves in all you do. it just makes all this harder,
living with all the lies.
they all blur together right in front of my eyes,
It's not good for me to be afraid each time we fight,
and to think we may not make it one more night.
It's not good for me to cry these tears and know it will never change.
it's all just so useless.