Questions

I smile to you,
But is it real?
Does anyone really,
Know how I feel?

I laugh at your jokes,
But am I really?
Do I really think,
Your jokes are silly?

I tell you,your close to me,
But is it true?
Do I really think,
I can be as honest as you?

I tell you ,I'll always stay happy,
But my God isn't that a huge lie?
Isn't it always me,
Who never stops wishing to die?

I tell you,I have no pain to hide,
But I hope I'm not obvious?
Do I really show how,
Much my pain is monstrous?

I tell you I rather die than lie,
But how can you take that as the truth?
Are you too blind to see,
That I'm ready for this life to lose?