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My suicide will be quick
it wont hurt a bit
the knife is closing in on my wrist
my hands in a fist
my eyes are closed
As the blood drips on the floor
I think about what i have done before
I think about my family & the people who care
and the people who have been there
soon my eyes get heavy
and the scenery gets blurry
suddenly i know I'm not sleeping
I scream & shout out everything i have been keeping
keeping from this crazy mixed-up world
I fall on the floor in the puddle of my blood
I feel so stupid, I feel so dumb
Why would i do this, i think as my body goes NUMB