Im Sorry Im Still Breathing

All that's left is empty
Nothing left to feel
Just a broken child
That needs some time to heal

Yes they may be close
But notice they do not
I doubt they'd even notice
If I were killed dead, shot

They constantly ignore me
My sadness goes unheard
I cannot just approach them
I cannot say a word

Its something unexplainable
Nothing you can fix
My world continues spinning
My emotions remain mixed

I don't know what I want
I don't know what is wrong
I need someone to hear me
I just want to belong

When I speak they don't understand They think it's all a joke
They laugh they even whisper Sometimes I wish they'd choke

They complain about their grades When they know mine are worse
They don't know how that hurts me
I want to scream and curse

I hate myself for so many reasons
You think it's just skin deep
It's so much worse then that
But obviously you can't see

I'm getting closer to the edge
And I'm so afraid to fall
I wish you'd pull me back
But do you notice me at all

I have so many problems
They never seem to end
It's getting to the point where
No longer can I pretend

My smiles have all been fake
They all begin to crack
Strength, beauty, confidence
So many things I lack

My tears are being replaced by Something worse I fear
A single drop of blood
Replaced a single tear

I wish I were someone else
Then maybe I'd be free
No problems and no worries
They'd all just let me be

But my wishes remain unanswered Theres no one there to care
No one here to listen
No one to be there

I apologize for anything
I've done that caused you pain
And if you disagree with this
I'm sorry I'm so vane

I'm sorry that im stupid
I'm sorry you cant see
I'm sorry that I'm ugly
But mostly I'm sorry that I'm me