Walk away from me

My answer never changes,
The same old line i say
"I'm fine, I'm okay,
I'm getting better everyday"

You buy my excuses,
Because i lie so well
I can tell you I'm perfect,
When really I'm in hell

So my soul gets darker,
The more that i deny
But please understand,
I can't help but cry

Each time i open my mouth
Something pulls me down
I scream at you to listen,
But you don't hear a sound

I've tried so many times,
To tell you how i feel
But I'm scared of being myself
I'm terrified of being real

You promise you will help
Because you really care
And I want so much to believe,
That you will always be here

But i know deep in my heart
Theres another girl for you
One who's openly honest,
And isn't always blue

That girl will never cry
And she won't act insane
Her smile will be perfect,
Nothing boring or plain

Please don't be angry
Because this hurts me to
I can't bare to let you go
But she's better for you

So i beg of you to walk,
Walk far away from me
Because my pain is disgusting
And I'd hate for you to see
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-I'm no good for him ...