Will i ever heal???

The pain is just too much i suffer through each day in hopes of sunshine rays

im numb to pain and have nothing to gain in the years i have to live
i wish that the knife would go so deep that i wouldnt see the daylight and my life would end really did it even begin?

the pain and tears have subsided to fall and the coldness is just too much i wish that i could once again try to feel the touch of the crimson pain cutting against the grain of my pale and tired arm

my pain is as deep as the scars that i have made and the pain that i live each day the scars will never go away and i just might never heal