Short of Happiness

Theres an emotion waiting.
This emotion is death.

Theres an emotion awaiting.
This emotion takes breath.

This emotion is the enigma within me destroying me as i die.
I'm hoping to find an explanation.
I want reasons for why.

Ever since we started dating, You were always there. But now your just silent and don't seem to care.

Your expressionless face, that look with no past. I want to know your emotions before my life ends so fast.

We use to kiss, everyday after school.
Now we don't even hug, what happened to it all?
We used to be so happy and now madness is beginning to crawl.

I have your photos, on the top of my desk. But as i look at them now, I wonder if they will ever rest.

They sit so quietly, waiting to be seen. How could we make them sleep when this all seems to be a dream.

I'm waiting for us to get back in the mood. I'm waiting for it be like as good as it should.

Our relationship has changed rapidly, and my emotions are near dead.
You've left me with meaningless words that supposedly you shed.

But how could this be, when it never felt real.
Do you really love me?
How do you feel?

I want to see the real you, come out of the dark.
I want to know you really love me, or is this a game you wanna start.

I'm in no mood, just tell me the truth.
Show you me you love me, show me some proof.

You've drawn me a picture of a rose and our names. Is this also a part of your game?

You never say much whenever in school, I'm beginning to break and i feel like a fool.

You mentioned marriage and a life shared with me. But i cant have that when you only hurt me.

We use to be so happy together but a lot has changed now. There always seems to be something
wrong yet i feel its hidden away. When can me go back to old times where we had something to say.

I'm always showing my affection to wards you, yet you never give any back. I'm alone in my own words of love and they seem to come back.

Every time i do something i feel iv done wrong. How could i make meaning to this as we go along?

I cant find any words to use and I'm about to take fault. From all the emotions I'm feeling now, suicide is the only result.

In trueness this poem is the deep fear of all. It shows every feeling I'm going through with no barrier to draw.

I once was happy with you but its turning to ash. I still love you every day, but its all draining real fast.

Your not giving me the emotions i would love to feel. I want to see you happy, yet it doesn't seem so real.

Have you given up on me? Are you just waiting for my move. You don't want to be the dumper, you want me to be the one to lose.

I cant see your emotions and cant tell by you're face. But i can feel the pain coming at me which is so hard to take.

I would love to be with you forever, but you need to do your part.
I would like to feel the love you have for me instead of on cards.

Kiss me on the cheek, tell me that you care. Help me find the inner love that always use to be there.

My words are Long and this poem is too short. To express every bit of my emotion, would be a photo resort.

A picture of death all in itself. Hanging so silent above the empty shelf.

I say my goodbyes as I end this short note. Just know that i love you and you will give me my hope.