A Cold Place I Call Home

So long I've been lying
In the presence of pain
Constantly crying
Always feeling the same

Questions that never
Are answered are haunting
The thought of this forever
Is paralyzing and daunting

And I know that unless I
Summon a strength to heal
This life will soon die
I need to cleanse the filth I feel

And yet I am reluctant too
Because the misery is safety
And even if I found a good thing to do
I would not do it faithfully

For my trust lies in my pain
A place that stands safe and still
No changes, it stays the same
They say to fight again … but I never will.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005