The Only Way I Can Cope With It

-Times have changed between then and now.
-Things are different, but I'm not sure how.

-In the beginning, things were great, however, time moved too fast.
-Funny how i thought this good relationship would last.

-Sometimes its hard to cope with the way things turned out.
-I see the world around me, wondering what life is about.

-I find myself looking at the past ready to cry.
-I see myself not caring, and thats the only thing that gets me by.

-This is bad i know, but its the best thing for now.
-Its the only way i can cope with it its the only way i know how.

-Its bad because i love him, but he can never know.
-When it started he loved me too, and that was so.

-He put me through so much un-needed stress,
-He made me feel inferior, and put my mind in a mess.

-That was bad i know, and yet i continue to give him a chance.
-I still remember the way he made my heart dance.

-I gave him everything he wanted, and still he demanded more.
-I know he doesn't deserve me, but hes in my hearts core.

-I'm wondering when it will be over, when i will allow it to stop.
-When will i realize that the cradle has dropped?

-How can i say i love him, when its hard for me to care.
-Sometimes he pushes me away, more then my heart can bare.

-It's the only way i can cope with it, its the only way i know how.
-Life is a journey, and i have to end this now.

-It comes to the point where i don't want to call.
-I know he will hang up on me, and that will be all.

-Why do i allow this, when i know i don't deserve it,
- i know i want his love, what do i have to do to earn it?

-One day he will come back to me, and everything will be okay.
-The guy i fell in love with, will come and save the day.

-But until that time comes, i continue to love but not care.
-I allow him to break my heart, more then my heart can bare.

-I'm wondering when it will be over, when i will allow this to stop.
- When i look in the mirror and realize what Ive got.

-Times have changed between then and now,
-Only this time, i know exactly how.

-One day the guy i once loved will come and save the day.
-But until that time comes, i continue to love him in every way.

-Its bad i know, but its the best thing for now.
-Its the only way i can cope with it, its the only way i know how.

~tabby~