Good-bye

Today was one of sadness, darkness and despair,
I looked at myself in the mirror, and it was more then my heart could bare.

For once again some one I care about has left me today.
With out saying a word, I am scared so I pray.

I pray that he is okay, and this is all just a dream.
Even though I know it’s not true, I wish that’s how it would seem.

I care about you a lot, you kept me sane.
You stopped me a couple times, from watching the blood flow down the drain.

But now that you’re gone, I feel like there’s nothing to live for.
I watched all my happiness go right out the door.

Once again I face rejection, my heart torn apart.
Why is it that cupid hit me with his dart.

I’m coming out of a heartbreak, and it is more then I can handle.
To watch you move away, I see your picture on my mantle.

Is this just a test? Is God just playing a game?
Is he trying to prove to me that I can go insane?

I yearn for your touch, your sensitive kiss.
Those few moments I lived in bliss.

I can’t take it anymore, this heartbreak must stop.
As I get the knife from the drawer, and the watch the blood drop.

Once again I have done it, it makes me feel better.
Now I go to the mail box, wishing to find a letter.

It is not there, and once again I am upset.
Why has God done this? A challenge I bet.

I am going to end this, for this tail is never ending.
Hopefully one day, my heart can begin mending.

~tabby~