The story of a cutter.

by Sixpence None The Richer   Mar 8, 2005


Think bout this;
Having to wear a jumper 24/7 is not cool, Knowing that if u take it off you will get stares and peoples stereo typical comments, judging you because u cut and have problems. Having to hide yourself from the people you love and pulling away from everything because your so scared of being exposed, being rejected,judged or knowing the one thing that helps will kill your loved ones, Knowing what u have done to yourself to ease the pain. Having to go to school everyday and hide yourself behind a fake smile and hoping to god that no one touches your arm in case they feel anything underneath your shirt or just because you cant bear to be touch-the pain is to intense. Having to lie to your family wen you wear jumpers in the heat and stop going to the pool or beach, giving them every excuse u have to save yourself, having to hide a secret that large to the people you love kills u inside, knowing that one day they will find out or you will go to far and have them find you unconscious,bleeding on the floor and having to see you like that, knowing you did it to yourself and having all your friends at school literally turn around and walk away; leaving you alone,cold and having no-one to talk to therefore cutting deeper, longer and faster than you ever have done before. Having to go through this is more pain than you will ever realize, Seeing the "trend" cutters at school, showing everyone there matching designs that they have cut in there skin, and thinking only if they know what is was like to be a true/real cutter and only cutting because nothing else helps and knowing it is wrong but being unable to stop yourself, They spread, deepen and scar your soul away. Knowing you absolutely hate cutting and regret ever starting the addictive pain relief and being so scared of being exposed that every time you go somewhere or are with another person you get this feeling in your gut- hoping to god they wont see/find out whats happening....Only if they knew...

Hey people got to go now, I'm so sorry its so long, I wrote it on how I feel and my thoughts on it.
Thanks for reading, Plz vote/ comment it would mean alot to me!!

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  • 5 years ago

    by Abstract Poet

    Beautiful Poem.

  • 15 years ago

    by Meagan Adelle

    Exactly how i feel. and the people i've told don't understand. the don't realize how it's an addiction and how them criticizing me about it, calling me stupid for ever starting it, makes the pain go deeper, therefore it gets worse. it's crazy how you find that you're not so alone in you're feelings..

    keep up the good work. =)

  • 17 years ago

    by ForeverYoung

    Hya, just wondering why you deleted all your other poems! they were awsome!!? wb plz love steph

  • 18 years ago

    by t. h a l l i d a y *

    Very Very good .....

  • 18 years ago

    by hanna

    This is so intense! i love it so much! it is one of my favorite poems. i know how you feel, and i hope you can get over the pain. keep up the great writing!