Mother hurts me

I wish to curl myself
Into a little round ball
To be invisible
And forget about it all

Mother the gambler
And mother the drunk
Who believes that I am nothing
Nothing but a flunk

She hits me
And I am battered and bruised
I can’t tell anyone
No-one knows of my abuse

My body is no longer white
But black and blue
I wish someone could help me
If only they knew

If only they knew
The pain I feel inside
To know I cant run
To know I can’t hide

I wish to hurt her
Stab her with a knife
So she can feel the way I feel
And know she wrecked my life

I wish to punch her
And slap her across the face
So she knows it was her
Who hurt me in the first place

Not the guy who raped me
Or the people who called me names
But my mother, her,
She is the one to blame

But still I love her
And I really don’t know why
Because all she does is
Hurt me and make me cry

As much as I hate her
All I want to hear
Is ‘I love you,
Sweety, my dear’

~~only the 1st and last verses apply to me, my mum doesnt abuse me and i've never been raped~~ i miss my mum saying i love you.... tear