No Longer Winning.

I cannot explain my feelings
They're way to complex for you
My head spins just thinking
If only you knew

My head says one thing
And my heart says another
One says I should stay
And the other, don't bother

Depression has a tight hold
On my teenage soul
It hurts me so much
But it won't let me go

My purpose on this Earth
It isn't even there
So fed up of feeling this way
I'm well beyond care

I don't know what to do
How to deal with how I feel
I can't no way let it out
To others my pain is not real

They think I'm being stupid
And maybe twisting the truth
It's not like that at all
How would you feel it being you?

I feel broken; beyond repair
My world is no longer spinning
And I know for certain
I'm no longer winning.