And so... pt II

And so you know the truth
finally you all know
i guess i can no longer
put on my fake show

but for now I'm told to live
I'm told to keep on trying
but how can i stay living
when inside I'm dying?

and so I've locked my heart
i hide it from their eyes
here is where i tell the truth
everything else is lies

i cannot hide my feelings
this site is where i spill
i no longer want to play
with razors that can kill

I'm sorry- so sorry
i let all of you down
i have lost control
and let myself drown

i want to die. i want to end
but since you have helped me
i feel that i must live
once again- I'm sorry

what you'll see is just a lie
i wont be here- just my shell
I'll live for you, for now
but i shall never be well

and so I've shut the door
and so I've locked it shut
all these bracelets that you see
cover my every cut