Everyday

Everyday there's something new
cutting, depression, anorexia too.

i don't know if i really have it
but not ever eating- it's becoming a habit

guess what i did as i wrote this down?
i cooked some soup and I'm forcing it down.

I've eaten so little for the past few days
I've walked around in a little daze

this food when i eat it it turns to dust
but i have to swallow- this food is a must

she helping me out- or at least shes trying
in school today she almost was crying

but i was smart- i told right away
now maybe this disease will go away

why is this shit happening to me?
I've got enough problems- cant you see?

its not my fault- I'm not trying to starve
I'm trying to cry, or scream or carve

ever since Wednesday its been hard to eat
nothing tasted good- apples weren't sweet

so until i can eat by my own will
I'll try to force my food and hold it down still

but ya know, its so hard, living like this
all the shit that i aim for, i always miss

once again I'm asking you all
to pick me up as i fall

I'm sorry messing all your lives up
with all of these problems and every last cut

depressions got me- its got me bad
nothing is helping when there's naught to be had

so until I'm alright- ill just wilt away
like i do almost everyday