My Suicide Note

You think you know how I feel
But you don't, you're never right
You actually believe you understand
Why I slit my wrists at night?

You can't see the hurt that breeds
You can't count all the times I've cried
You think this smile on my face is real
Just another thing about my life I've lied

You think I'm happy but I'm not
Just one more assumption you've made
Cause every time I feel you near
I just simply hide the blade

I'll be a good girl, I'll put on
A smile that isn't real
I'll let you stare through my pain like glass
Let you think you know how I feel

I'll suppress myself, I'll let you pretend
You know how I scarred my arm
I have no choice but allow you to believe
You know why I inflict myself with harm

It's not as easy as it seems
It's something I just can't stop
All the hurt in my life
Bleeds out with each red drop

I feel so cold, I feel so numb
Everyone's touch just feels like ice
My heart turns away your comforting words
Simple solitude is its price

I'm giving up, I'll tell you why
You're breaking my protective wall
I'd rather feel this blinding pain
Than be numb and feel nothing at all

You want to be my tourniquet
But you're the one watching me drown
Let go of my clipped wings
Stop nailing them to the ground

My bloody wings are invisible to you
As I'm lying on the floor
But with these wings and these slit wrists
One day you'll see me soar

To all the cutters, criers, sufferers, dumpees, rape victims, abuse survivors, and God knows who else...I hope you read this, and know that no matter how alone you feel, no matter what you think, someone else has to deal with the same shi.t as you. I've had to go through some rough stuff, and despite what your opinions of me are, I am here for anyone who is willing to talk. If you are bored or if you have something really important on your mind, you can e-mail me at just_me3452000@yahoo.com Don't be afraid to talk to me, I wanna hear from all my readers, it's so awesome to get comments so thanks a lot! Love, always, KT