Decisions!!

I want to escape
from this body of lies
words thrown back and forth
as opinions all tied

I wish i could explain
what wasn't suppose to feel right
i wish i could tell you
what happen that night

i wish i wasn't so scared
of you walking away so fast
tears of fear
trickle down at last

I can't describe
what he made me feel
safe, happy, and pretty
I'm sure you know the deal

i can't help but die
when i see those tears
rolling down your face
because he's not here

but then again i can't denie
that i didn't make a mistake
i did let him in
and now it's too late

something happened
that could break us apart
a stupid decision
and a change of heart

you told me to not be scared
now this chance is more of a dare
I'm afraid to tell you
what truly lies within

I'm afraid you won't understand
or you'll think I'm being a bad friend

I'm afraid you'll choose to leave me
because a good thing ended between you and him

i feel completely selfish
and stupid at that
i should of stayed clear
from the awful tearful mess