Below The Surface

Below the surface
are things you'll never see!
and no matter how hard you try,
You'll never understand why I wanna die,

You think think you'll understand, know why,
Why almost every night I cry....
Why my world is spinning, why it's so painful,
and why it will still appear a riddle!!

I want to be happy, I really do,
Sadly though I need that, not you!
You mean so much to me,
But the time isn't right, I'm not ready!

Below the surface,
She wants to be free,
She being my inner peace,
Right now she needs to be chained least......

Please don't try to save me,
I hate sympathy!!!
Just let me leave!!
I really never wanted to or meant to hurt you!!!