Is it....??

I feel so much regret. I miss you so much. This month has been horrible. But…it is getting better. I feel so bad for this. How can your death not affect me greatly anymore? I mean it has affect on me…but…I’m over all the little details making me break down and cry. I can see someone with Downs and not cry…I just smile. Everyone is stilled crush…so why am I ok? Am I being heartless? I feel like it. I knew you for a short time so I barely knew you. Right? Is that it? This isn’t right. I can’t have fun…why should I be able to? You aren’t here, and all your family is still suffering. I’m such a horrible friend. What am I to say? Am I to pretend? True, I miss you tons…some things do affect me. I try to not let things get to me…I don’t wanna cry anymore. Is it wrong that I am not? I know you can’t here me, but I feel better “talking” to you. I love ya Uncle Carl!

***Sorry…..everyone….no comments are necessary…unless you feel it is a need***