Promises

I promised myself I'd never fall this hard for a guy
I promised myself that I'd never straight faced lie
I promised myself my head would stay held up high
I promised myself for a man I'd never cry

I promised myself I'd stay strong no matter how hard things are
I promised myself things would never descend this far

I promised myself these feelings would go away
I promised myself that the happiness was going to stay
I promised myself I wouldn't give in to what you wanted me to say
I promised myself no matter what I would not be afraid

I promised myself my feelings wouldn't end up dead
I promised myself that I would still be able to sleep in my bed

I promised myself I wouldn't ever give myself to someone
I promised myself that this would always be so fun
I promised myself Id leave and just run and run
I promised myself that this load wouldn't always weigh a ton

I promised myself these would be true
But I broke each promise just for you

*A poem that best describes my life at the moment*