Jaded

-Feeling lost

There’s a soft light in the distance, it sways within the breeze
Softly flickering before me, I could touch it with such ease
My hands feel so very bare, that I know it must be mine
But when I try to reach this light, I find I’m out of time

You know how things, never are, how they seem to be
Well I can’t seem to find myself, in this person that I see
And yes I know I’ve lost the plot, I lost that long ago
But you see, theres more to me, theres more even I don’t know

And I’m constantly trying hard, to find the edge within my soul
But just as I’m beginning to get somewhere, I find another hole
Oh why must it be like this, this question rules my mind
Sometimes I sit and shake so much, I leave the world behind

This light that sparks in the distance, well now I must beseech
Why is it whenever I try, I find it’s out of reach?
This is such a turbulent game, that I’ve been forced to play
Every minute of every hour, every night and day

Go on light, speak to me now, tell me what wrong I have done
Your voice is so familiar now, please tell me what I have become
See, I’m trying with all my might inside, to find the end of this thread
But no matter how hard I try to search, I’m stopped by the war in my head

Will I ever be, this searching soul…a hood on a landscape so stark
Damaging herself with the sticks and stones, whilst living alone in the dark
Because when my sore eyes, dare to look up, I find the soft light is now shaded
And I can’t help but to stop, and look at myself, because I find my reflection so jaded