Hiding My Scars

I didn't want to believe it was true
That the blade was put in my hand by you
All your yelling and fighting payed off
The scars on my arms are a criss- crossed tale
Of where i have been and where you have taken me
Called me names And played stupid games with my head
Seeing your face was the thing i would dread the most
Sitting up late at night scared of what might come next
If you will put me to another test
Will you hit me again
Make me bleed and scream in pain?
I don't think so I have beat you to it
Ive taken the blade and carved a pit in my arm
A bloody pit that wants to overflow
When you see my arms you'll finally know the pain you cause me
Maybe one day you will finally see
I have been hiding my scars for many years
Holding back tears
Both caused by my many fears of what you'll do next
But Daddy I promise i wont let you down
I will never ever cut when your around
When i'm with you ill hide my scars
Ill keep my scars to myself
Ill really try to get some help
From the blade of course
What more can you expect from me?
A death plea?
I'll never kill myself thats something ill leave for you
One day when your mad enough i know you will too
You'll find my blade on the side of my bed
Grab it slide it gently across my neck
You always said you'd never hurt me
That my death will be quick and easy
Is that something a father would do?
No but maybe you.
You haven't been a father to me
You have never taken a hint that i need help
You see yourself in your mirror not the girl standing behind you
I need you now more then ever
But what the heck i have made it this far.
I can live a few more years hiding my scars

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-Jamie