My Abortion

It's been 10 months since I lost you,
I can't believe it would be a year this May,
I still miss you like I did before,
And I think about you each day.

You became a small part of me,
I know it wasn't for very long,
But it still hurts to this very day,
Knowing my little baby is gone.

I didn't get a chance to meet you,
To hold your tiny little hand,
My love for you grows more each day,
More than you'll ever understand.

I knew that I wanted to keep you,
I knew deep down in my heart,
But my strong love for someone else,
Gradually, sadly tore us apart.

Why didn't I put you first?
You're worth more than any boy,
'Cause he's now gone, but you'd still be here,
Smiling and bringing me joy.

I still cry myself to sleep at night,
Dreaming of me and you,
I can't believe I killed something so precious,
Something that belonged to me too.

I know I've got to live with this,
I have to face the fact that you're gone,
But I'll never forget you my little baby,
I'm just trying so hard to move on ...

I'm sorry ... Please don't judge me.