What Have I Done?

I tear the flesh from my face,
Ive realized that im a disgrace,
As i drag the blade,
My pain fades away,
Theres no way out,
No turning back today,
There is no white light,
No pearly gates,
There is only darkness,
Did i make a mistake,
I fumble for the phone,
As my world spins out of control,
What have i done to myself,
I need some help,
I dont want to die anymore,
Lifes too precious to take,
This is not how its supposed to be,
I cant die this way,
No strenght to call out,
My body is feeling heavy,
The darkness is taking over,
I hope they miss me.