A Touch of Insanity

Forwards and backwards,
Up and down,
My life spins out of control,
As though I'm Falling to the ground.

Hate builds up and the rage flows,
My stress gets me mest,
No other way do i know.

Most would say I seem pretty sane,
If anyone knew half of the real me,
They wouldnt think the same.

Im normal only sometimes,
Although no one knows,
Im just a manic depressive,
That feels truly alone.

Anti-depressants,
I think i need a few,
Maybe a whole box,
So i can keep my cool.

What do you think,
Does it matter anyway,
A life full of unanswered questions,
No answers do i find by living life this way.

Ending it all would be too easy....