Deserving

I feel that i deserve this
that with each and every cut
the slate is wiped clean again
clean of what I've put

i deserve the hurt and pain
Cos i argue all the time
or at least i cause the quarrels
i can only mime

i deserve the painful knife
because i let my parents down
whenever i am home from school
all they do is frown

i deserve the white-hot tears
spilling down my face
i let my PE teacher down
i came last in every race

i deserve the bloodstained clothes
because i can't deceive my friends
they always want to know how they
can try to make amends

i deserve all of this
because i mess up all i do
don't come near me anyone
or you'll catch it too.