I'm just a failure...

I’m sick of being a failure,
it seems its my only reality.
I’m never good enough for you,
And I try, but I guess I don’t have enough mentality.
To do half the things you want me to be able to do.
I’m not good at math, in fact I’m just not good at school,
but do have to yell at me, like I’m not your daughter, like I’m just a fool?
I want to understand, everything.
I want to be good, at anything.
I’m sick of always being no good for you
I’m tired of what you put me through.
My mascara is running...and yet i dont wipe away my tears.
my face is blotchy but its not one of my fears.
I look like shit, but I cant think of anything besides how much you despise me
I’m your daughter but your not proud, why cant I see,
I should give up, I’ll never be just right.
Even though day and night to make you proud, I do fight.
There are so many expectations.
Why cant you let me live for me?

Hayley ©
*i know this isnt good but its how my mom makes me feel. I'm makin grades above c's but still she acts like I'm not good enough...i just had to get this out*