The Dream of Tomorrow

I wish someone could see
the pain and the hurt I feel
I can't do this any longer
Its just to much to bear
I can't pretend anymore
the fake smile is slowly fading
as the rest of my life seems to go with too
thoughts of you and me just wont leave my head
it kills me that you're leaving
but you don't seem to mind
we were so close and I'm still not sure what happened
and it hurts me more and more each day
my mind is like a bomb just about to blow all this stress has finally built up and I can't do this anymore
nothing is going right
everything is out of my control besides the knife that sits in my drawer
I am dreaming for a better tomorrow but thats why its called a dream...it will never be reality