My dark secret

I'm sick of feeling this way
i need this pain to end
but I'm afraid I'm doing it the wrong way
how can something that feels so good be bad?
it really messes with your head
thinking about it all day long, whilst pretending every things ok
imagine if someone found out what i was doing,
what would they say?
how would they react?
i just wish i could go back to the way i used to be
but maybe it's to late

this is the first time i have ever done this and i'd really like to know what you all think so please rate it and tell me what you think