I need you here

There's so many things i miss about you, i have no idea where to start
i miss the passion we shared for porcelain dolls
and how you had the ability to make everybody laugh
i miss everything about you, why can't you just be here???
towards the end of your days i knew you were very sick
but i never would have guessed that we were all destined for this.
i still see your face in my dreams sometimes
sometimes i even tell myself that none of this is even true
but i know deep in my heart that i will never again be with you
everyday it hurts so bad, the pain so strong and fierce
I'm not sure how much more i can take...
how much longer i can live
the pain is going from bad to worse
was your death the cause of it all?
my life seems so bad to me
but everyone else See's only bliss
i wish you were here to tell me what to do
to help me got through this, just like you used to.

i no its not much of a poem but i would love to know what you think