If You Only Would Have Knew

Sitting here on my bed
wishing I were dead.
I take the shiny knife
the one to end my life.

I put it onto my wrist
crunch my hand into a fist.
Into my skin is rips
into my vein it slips.

Now i can see the blood
as it begins to flood.
I know something’s wrong
it shouldn't take so long.

The blood will not stop flowing
and I can tell my life is slowing.
My painful life coming to end
this suicide note, I will send.

You couldn't fix my pain,
can tell that i’m not sane,
now I’ve really lost it
gone into this raging fit.

If you only would have noticed
maybe I could have focused
just threw these thoughts out,
but now all i can do is doubt.

I doubt my life will ever be good,
oh i really truly wish it would.
The same things everyday
not ever knowing what to say.

I know you could have seen
with your senses oh so keen.
You know I didn’t trust you
my feeling were not new.

If you just would have been there
nothing in this life is ever fair.
maybe i could have been with you
if you only would have knew.