I miss you

I wanted to say that-
i miss you,
i miss you so...

but what can it be, this
lie that i see, i
can't even remember
what it was like

i flew out one day, and
threw it away, i
left all i had, i
never looked back

memories are leaving, and
i'm left believing,
it's all ok, and
it's all i wanted

i wanted to say that,
i miss you,
i miss you so...

but then i remember,
cold, dark, December,
trying to find,
faces in the sky,
what is this and who am i?

how can i miss that?
wanting to die, and
i wanted to cry, i
can't feel it!
i can't feel it!

as i look your eyes again,
the sun's shining down on me,
i can see, i can breathe again,
it was worth it!

i wanted to say that,
i miss you,
i miss you so...

i wanted to say it,
i wanted to pray, and
never forget

now that it's over, i
can never again,
i'm sorry,
look away my friend