Hiding

I went to bed screaming, to a song i don't really know
my eyes are now gleaming, as i reveal the side i don't show

the music is in my body, as i yell every line
i cant stop screaming, i no longer feel fine

my reply to people, who ask if i am OK
sure I'm good, and i move with my miserable day

i cant let them see, that i hurt on the inside
i cant let them see, how many times i fail when i tried

i must not move, from my hiding spot in my head
if i do i know that a fact i will end up dead

i must stay hiding for my protection and for others
for my friends, family, and for my soon to be little brother

i must not let my emotions show, i must be strong
but why is it that when i do this it doesn't feel wrong

i know it is, even though as i hide it feels right
i must continue hiding and never let myself in you sight

i must have learned it, when i was a little boy
when my mom would beat me, when i head in the closet with my toys

i guess its a part of me, a habit i cannot break
but i have been hiding to long, my strength starts to shake

how much longer i can go, i don't really know
but if i hide all my life, then soon the blood will flow

i must wait, wait to come out of my space
wait to show my true emotions in my actions, through my face