How i face my life

I feel the open wound
my hearts still not in one
it seems like all the pain
has just begun

i feel the cuts
that i hide
also the feelings
i have inside

i can feel every thing
all the pain
i hide my tears
in the rain

i always smile
but its always fake
i cant stand hiding
and making so many mistakes

my hearts still torn
times going so slow
everything i must hide
all the pain i don't show

I'm sick of everything
including the past
I'm really surprised
my life last

I'm sick of using a blade
to release every bit of sadness
when no ones around i fill everything with anger
and let go of my fake gladness

i cover every mark
as good as i can
but thats the one thing i hate
being someone i cant stand

I'm so fake inside
i hate myself fas it is
i cant hold on much longer
suicide is what i think i should commit

maybe i should Wait a little longer
things may get better
maybe i don't have to use
my trusting knife forever

~yeah i like this one !!!(: yeah things aren't going to well ... I'm just glad they may get better .......

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