Cutting

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i cut my skin
but not too deep
the last thing i want
is the endless sleep

i just cut
to let off my pain
to disguise myself
and hide my tears in rain

my broken heart
my crushed soul
i cant fix anything
to make life whole

my smiles fake
and never real
and pain is all
i seem to feel

so when i do
i use this knife
i cut my arms and legs
to help my life

i cut so slowly
so i cant feel the breaking skin longer
life's not getting better
and I'm not getting any stronger

the one thing i love about life
is the feeling of this blade carving in my skin
thats probably the only thing i love
it brings out my creativeness within

i can let out everything
and no one will no
i hide everything anyways
nothing i show

no one noes
I'm someone i hate
i hate everything about me
I'm one big mistake

even knowing all the attention i get
i still feel alone
i made one big promise
that thees marks will never be shown

no matter what i do
my arms will stay covered
its just me you and the knife
will always be together

I'm happy i can have someone
who wont tell my secrets
but if they see my marks
then i guess my arms couldn't keep it...

but i cant take living such a unhappy
and sad life
i end up taking it out on me
with this knife

thats my only true friend
one who gets me threw ever thing
its will be there always
and help me with anything

people may think
i really need help
but thats there problem
all i have to do is grab that knife off my shelf

take it and cut
when no ones around
cover up the marks
so they wont be found

I'm happy to say
i love the feeling that it gives
the knife makes me better
and helps how i live

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