Sing Herself to Sleep

Still undergoing some editing, wrote this at 2 am so it's not the best I could do. But hopefully I'll make it better..
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She used to sing a soft lullaby
before she put herself to sleep,
to make sure she would not have any nightmares,
dreams were what she wanted to keep.

She dreamed of stars,
twilighting the sky,
and never in her dreams,
did she have to say goodbye.

But it seemed as though,
the nightmares were when she was awake,
this dreadful pain,
was something she could not escape.

So when she walked around,
she hid her misery in a smile,
but hiding the truth,
can only go on for a while.

Once at home,
the nightmares began,
as her boyfriend slapped her,
and then she ran.

He told her she was worthless,
a pile of junk,
as he smacked her again,
to the ground she sunk.

Tears were wetting the floor,
while she blamed herself for this,
she said it wouldn't had happened,
is she did not get him so pissed.

The next day he apologized,
as he looked at her swollen face,
he kissed her and said he loved her,
and just with that, he thought it was all erased.

He promised it would be the last time,
but of course it was a lie,
it continued everyday,
the most she could do was cry.

She wanted to end it all,
but she knew he would not accept it,
everything would just be worse,
he would throw another fit.

She planned another way out,
she would hurt herself instead,
and the next time her boyfriend saw her,
she would be dead.

So she sang a soft lullaby,
before she put herself to sleep,
to make sure she wouldn't have any more nightmares,
dreams were what she wanted to keep.