Why is it?

Why is it that everytime
everychance I get
I try to be nice to you
but it blows up
in my face
and i end up hurting
even more
than before
I don't know why
I even try
I know how it is going to end
so should i just give up now
and forget
the feelings I have
all I have hid
from you
you don''t know the truth
and what it is
how it is
but to be completly honest
the truth has changed
and now
finally
I am over you.