Defeated

There's no getting up from where I’ve been
There’s no forgetting the torment I’ve seen
A shell of a person is what's left of me
Don’t tell me I’ll get better, I’m not that naive

My personal deceit is that of my intellect
There is more inside of me that many neglect
For it is easier to play the fool than be seen for what is me
A broken souled girl who has been torn to my knees

Each new day brings a burden to my heart
A continuous fight that's tearing me apart
I’m breaking down, I’m loosing and I’m crying
If I said I didn't want it to end I’d only be lying

The time is coming now when I will break
The clock is running, the memories are stirring
In place of this pain I wish so bad that I would feel hate,
But each new challenge just sees more pain emerging

Banished from hurting myself from those who care
But they haven't seen my life, they were never there
hurt and lost is how i've always been
It hurts more then I can ever write down complete
But one day, I fear for the people closest to me
The day will come when I wont get back on my feet

My time is running out
My heart and soul are screaming out
I fear the day the terror is complete
For that will prove my hearts defeat.