As usual

I woke up this morning
late, as usual
i rushed around, trying to find clothes
got my usual lecture
once again- i forgot to eat

but something was different

today i wasn't depressed
today i felt alive
i felt that a weight was lifted
the burden that slowed me down
the guilt that i held
all of that was gone- finally

the one thing that i loved had left
the one that cared for me- gone
but today i felt no regret
today i felt reborn

i rushed to my first class
barely made it- as usual
i rushed to finish my homework
got my usual lecture
once again- ignored it

but something was different
i didn't feel judged
i didn't care anymore
i sensed her icy glare
but it didn't affect me at all
i didn't feel like a mistake
the dread that i held was gone

the one that had controlled me
had finally let me loose
i have set myself free
today i was alive

i walked tall the rest of the day
i ignored the puzzeled glares
i laughed it off, i felt great
and all because of her!