It's really over~

Today she asked me how I've been,
And I said good when really I'm not.
All I could think of was the time we spent,
And how I miss hanging with her a lot.

Now I look and all I see,
Is her and her new best friend.
It really isn't fair to me,
Cuz I never wanted our friendship to end.

She was always the only one,
Who I could stand no matter what.
I took advantage of what we've done,
And now the door to our friendship is shut.

I don't like to think or talk about this,
And every time someone brings it up again,
I always turn my head and look away,
And ask them how they've been.

Hardly anyone knows how I feel,
Because I act like I don't care.
But really I care and that is real,
And honestly I hope one day she's there.

I don't know what to say anymore,
But don't get me wrong my life is great,
I have so many people that care,
And a boyfriend that is willing to wait.

There's still an emptiness in my heart,
That I know will always be there.
Because I know we're now grown apart,
And she'll never really care.

*Not the best...but I don't care..I'm just confused*