I Want To Feel

I am so empty now,
The only time I feel anything,
Is when I’m with you.

I can’t see anything,
The world is just one big blur,
I just want it all to end.

I want to be able to feel again,
To express emotion,
Without it being a lie.

I want you here with me,
Holding me in your arms,
Telling me everything will be ok.

I feel so numb now,
Nothing in this world to live for,
Then why do I hesitate?

Why don’t I just end it all?
I get so close many times,
Then decide against it last minute.

There are so many things in my head,
Why can’t someone make them go away?
I don’t want to feel this pain anymore.

I want to get off the floor,
I’m having trouble picking myself up,
Will anyone help me?

I wish things would get easier,
Without all this pain,
And no one to talk to.

Maybe soon I’ll get the courage,
To do what I’ve wanted to for so long,
To end my suffering.

But before I go,
Just know I love you,
And you are the reason I’m still alive.